As I regain my health, I am more aware of just how much I NEED my writing to become more than a hobby; therefore, I choose my life’s purpose over “getting by.” After all, whatever makes you happy is not a waste of time.
Hell, most of the time I was never tall enough to ride the rollercoasters, but I did try a few and it was enough to know that it wasn’t for me. Right now in my life, this journey of battling anxiety with panic disorder is one big rollercoaster ride and I want off.
The healing process is a tug of war with my ego. My body and mind have been on a steady decline of brokenness and my ego kept me going for all the wrong reasons. So while the breakdown was slow, my ego expects a quick fix. Relearning how to be in rest is challenging but for a nervous system that is on hyperdrive, rest is necessary.
“If you can’t fly, then run. If you can’t run, then walk. If you can’t walk, then crawl. Whatever you do, you have to keep moving forward.” Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Whatever it is that you want to see changed in yourself or the world, YOU have the power to make a positive difference. […]